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84 Days!

July 31, 2006

This is good news for SL, MY, me and all expectant mothers if it comes true soon enough emoticon

The actual news is here

What can I say?
"God is Good, All the time…"

After reading what pregnancies and labor cost a mother and my personal pregnancy experience, I think all new mommies deserve this longer break.

My company in HQ already have 3 months maternity leave all these while…so implementing it here, hopefully is not a big issue.



My caaarrrrr……..

July 28, 2006

Ok, I am just gonna rant here and let go…we cannot turn back the time.

Yesterday, my hubby and his colleague came to KLCC for a seminar. While passing the main entrance of Suria KLCC, the car in front stop and out of a sudden reverse and bang onto the front of my car. The excuse given by the lady driver is she do not know where is Tower 1 and was trying to get the guard to help her (try to drive towards the guard).

  • What kind of excuse is this!!!??? She thinks she is the only car on the road ka? Simply reverse without looking!
  • I wonder whether she know how to drive! Kopi-O license ka??!!
  • Why don’t you just ram into one of the tower and straight ask the reception counter ppl…never see ppl so stu*** before!
  • !^%$#@#*!

My car is dented in front, bumper crack at the side, front light went in and paint came off. I want her to fix everything!!! cause she is obviously 100% wrong!!

Mechanic said if fix everything will cost RM1k++ and she need to claim insurance. What the !@%^&!*$!!!!!

She can drive a bigger car than me and cannot afford the RM1k++
Oi! If claim insurance, I will be without a car for at least 3 weeks and I am preggy ma’am and sick! You freaking B****!! is causing me lots of trouble because you dunno how to drive a stupid car!!!!
She is lucky I am not at the scene…else I am gonna shout at her on top of my weak lung, squeeze her into a tiny ball and kick her into eternity forever and ever..Amen!
(This is to make sure she does not cause more trouble on the road anymore)

At last, my nice and gentleman hubby agree to just do a much scale down fixing that cost her RM300++, which she can afford. Also because we can still have our car back in hopefully a day. 
Oi lady! Salary is out already and your salary is mine this month because of your incompetence in driving a car!!!

She took my hubby to her mechanic somewhere in Ulu Klang…so damn far! and cost my hubby RM16 to take a cab back to his office (Oi lady! r u gonna pay for this!!?). Apparently, she seem to know the mechanic well…not suprising to me! maybe she need to fix someone’s car every 2 weeks or so… 

Sigh…knowing me well, my hubby did not call me to the scene as I am only upstairs in 47th flr Tower 2. Else, I will be creating a scene there bigger than the protest nearby emoticon Next day headline "Distress preggy beat-up kopi-o license women"



My pregnancy ‘kisah benar’ - 1st trimester

July 25, 2006

I would just like to share my experiences on my severe pregnancy symptom, as I still can remember them now. Many friends told me that I will not remember it that well once my baby is born as the joy will overwhelm me (or more the endless task of taking care of a newborn).

Taking care of a very nauseated, always vomiting, no appetite and no energy preggie is a very tough job. Everyday is a new challenge and if the person is not a very strong person, he/she could easily get affected and end up having the same nausea/vomiting and eventually gave up. I thank God that I have a very strong husband (emotionally very stable) and throughout my sickness, he is very patience, never once complained and still manage to stay positive in front of me.

In words, the above characteristics sounds simple, but when you have a very sick person with you 24/7, and this person is your loved one and he/she do not seem to get any better in weeks/months, it is really emoticonand emoticon helpless.

Summary of my pregnancy symptoms experience (in the order that I can remember):

  • I started vomiting the food that I eat, from just a portion of food and it progress to everything out, including the yellowish stomach acid.
  • Start to feel tired and lack of energy and without much food, I was unable to gain energy at all. (Weight loss = 2.5Kg)
  • Lost of appetite totally and mouth has a weird, salty and metal taste all the time.
  • Doctor start giving me MC, for the whole week.
  • Vomiting became worse from 2 - 3 times a day initially, it increase to 7 -8 times a day. My worst record is more than 10 times a day and I lost count after that. Even a sip of water cannot be retained in the body. I got admitted to hospital at this point after my check-up. Gynae said I am very dehydrated, starving and my urine contains acid. (Weight loss = 5Kg)
  • I was put on drips throughout my stay in hospital and was given a jab and pills to stop the vomitting immediately. I remember one of the nurse got sounded by my gynae for giving me the medicine late.
  • The jab and medicine manage to stop my vomitting but makes me drowsy. I was served porridge 3 meals a day and I manage to eat at least half the portion. First time in my life I have to force myself to eat.
  • Got discharged on the 3rd day as I was feeling quite depressed in the hospital and was asking my gynae to let me go home. I vomitted only twice in the hospital, mainly liquid.
  • When I got home, the vomiting increased again and continue for the following 2 weeks. I was still on pills and it manage to help me to eat a little.
  • Slowly, the vomitting reduce and I decided that I will go back to work. Anyway, I have no more MCs. All the time, I am still feeling tired and weak.
  • Start to have insomnia (cannot sleep) for 2 days. Manage to overcome the problem by reading the Bible and listening to soft music till I dozed off.
  • By 13th week, start to feel better gradually and gain back some energy. Manage to resume some normal activities.

I only feel excited on the week my ClearBlue test showed a positive result, after that it is a scary and taxing roller coaster ride up to 12th week.  Now, I feel that the roller coaster ride has come to the ending part, where you slowly regain yourself and feel a sense of relief, and the heart not pumping as hard anymore. I cannot wait to get off this roller coaster…



Down Syndrome Scan

July 21, 2006

I am in my 13th week now and yesterday hubby and me went for the down syndrome scan as recommended by gynae. I took leave, thinking that I can rest at home before the scan…but I am hit by another round of nausea/vomitting since breakfast. Sigh…I am really getting very tired of this severe pregnancy symptom. When will I be well again? 14th week? 15th week?
I am already entering 2nd trimester, have mercy on me and give me back my health, my appetite and no more vomitting everyday! I want to feel normal again…I am still hoping that the coming weeks will bring me more relief…

Gynea said that baby is okay, measuring 6 cm. Not much risk of down syndrome. I imagine that I can put the baby on my palm, so small. The scan took quite a while, because baby is not cooperating and it was hard to scan the nasal bone. I can see that the baby is using his hand to cover the face, and kicking a bit. Maybe he feel disturbed or just plain shy (Actually, we don’t know the gender yet, but just refer baby as ‘he’ first, easier to write).

Many expectant mom told me how excited they are when they see their baby in the womb…but as for me, I just feel glad, not overly excited. Maybe because I am still feeling the pregnancy symptom very much.

Anyway, all this is part of life journey and I hope these challenges and the miracle of life inside me will prepare me to be a stronger and better person. I pray that as I approach motherhood, I will remember that God is always there for us, loving us dearly and every challenges that come, we just have to trust God that He will help us through. 

 



Jesus Loves Me

July 11, 2006

Jesus loves me this I know
For the Bible tells me so
Little one to Him belongs
They are weak but He is strong

Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so…

This is the first praise song that I learned from my grandma when I was little. Back then, I sang it in Hokkien language. To me there are no difference, this song still touch my heart deeply. I still remember that I sang it to everyone that I know once I remember the whole song…to my mom while she is washing dishes at the sink, to my father while he is resting, to my godmother (staying with us that time) who do not know Hokkien language at all…they are all amused by me.

Recently again, this song touch my heart so deep. I am having lots of difficulties with my pregnancy, mainly nausea, vomiting, loss of appetite, losing weight, tiredness and sleepless nights…so hubby and me decided to go to Salvation one night to see if there are any sentimental song CDs that can soothe me to sleep. While browsing around, this song is played and I felt tears in my eyes cause it touched me deeply. It is a baby lullabies CD and we bought it. Now every night I listen to it and it really soothe me.

After being sick for more than a month, it really takes away a lot from me and make me a dull person. So, while rotting at home one day and it seems that I cannot take it anymore, this words of prayer from my friend’s wedding video just strike me, "God loves you very much!". I felt a relief immediately and quickly got up to pray, start responding to God…thanking Him for everyone and everything around me. A sense of gladness and comfort just fill me that day.

I really learned now that during times of trials like this, we need to know that God is there, protecting and loving us always. Never give up! and do not be afraid because God is there with us when we are weak.

There are so many favours that I received during this time and I just want to thank all the people that continue to support and encourage me.

A BIG THANK YOU and God bless you all greatly emoticon to:

My Dear Hubby for your unconditional love, prayer, care & support
My Parents and brother for your love & support
My Pastor and family for your prayer & support
All my cell group members for your prayer & support
My friends, manager and colleagues for your support & concern