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This week I will enter into the 3rd trimester of my pregnancy - the final league

"Dear Lord, please guide me Lord, gimme the courage, strength to run this final round. Let me carry baby to full term, and let me give birth naturally to a healthy baby. And if I may add Lord, let my labour be short and simple . Thank you Lord. Amen"

Last week, I went thru another round of pregnancy symptom that got me a bit worried. I was experiencing hardening at the abdomen (also known as Braxton Hicks contractions), which is quite common. But, mine come with aching muscle tensions on chest and back (about 1 hour plus usually) and followed by vomiting - then I felt relief. It happen almost every day, which is quite scary and I decided to call my gynae. But last week was Raya break and my gynae also went for his week long break. Thank God and thanks to the holiday here and there, I manage to just rest at home and recuperate after every episode.

Today, I managed to call my gynae and told him my symptom. He asked how regular is the contractions and the vomiting. After I told him (like once a day), he said ’emmm…..Any bleeding?’ Nope. He asked me to see him as scheduled this weekend. Waa…he sounded so calm, so I think should be no big deal - I hope. God be with me.

I might have another 10 weeks or so being pregnant - before I see baby. The feeling is really just all mixed - happy, anxious, excited, worried and etc. I also suddenly have this urge to clean and organise my little apartment. I think this probably is also known as nesting instinct - to prepare for the newborn. I cannot do much by myself, so my hubby is helping me and I also hire part-time maids. I just felt so relieve after everything is organised and I like to just sit in baby room and admire around

Despite the symptoms I am facing, I will still look forward to the next 10 weeks. I know for sure 2 exciting events coming up, my friend’s firstborn coming soon (same gynae and same hospital with me) and Christmas!

Do you believe that God exist?

The answers may be yes, no, sometimes, maybe…

I am a Christian and I do believe in God, but many times throughout my walk with Him so far, I find that I sidetrack, loose focus on His words, loose faith and become weak.

Many times…I questioned myself, how the word of God (Bible) can teach or reveal anything to me?

So, for stubborn nut like me, something has to happen in order for me to see and experience His Truth.
(Suddenly, I can hear the famous TV show tagline "You asked for it!")

God becomes more and more real to me after I got pregnant. Through my pregnancy ordeal, this verse came so real and hit me:

To the woman he said, "I will greatly increase your pains in childbearing; with pain you will give birth to children. Your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you." Genesis 3:16

See!! God said it already! Just that I did not give enough thoughts to the verse above when I read it earlier. For me, there are 3 big "Yes" that I can mark on the verse above:

1. Yes, pregnancy is difficult and not a bed of roses like what I thought earlier - greatly increase your pains in childbearing
2. Yes, labour is painful and that is why so many women cannot seem to stop thinking/talking/fearing about it. There are lots of articles about the whole process too - with pain you will give birth to children
3. Yes, we love/desire our hubby enough to go thru the above, therefore hubby rules! - Your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you

Haih…Dear God! Eventhou the above verse is scary, but thank you for telling me again. Should read your Word more diligently laa…sigh…u really know me!

Okay, okay! by the way…it is not all scary verses like the above that God told me alone. He also told me not to give up because He will walk beside me and will not leave me alone

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8

I want my home to be clean and tidy! (Who doesn’t right?!)

Since my tummy has grown and become more round and getting heavier, household chores like cleaning has become a challenge to me. I also get tired easily and the ultimate reason is I am getting lazier as well
I wanna sleep so much on my off days!

So, to solve my domestic issue, I have concluded that I will hire part-time cleaners to clean my house weekly. A few of my colleagues did just that and so far I have only heard good comments from them. They said, "It is better than having a live-in maid, especially when your just live in a small apartment"…

So far, I have called 2 - 3 cleaners from Classifieds/flyers in our mailbox, but none of them turn up
I made appointment with them and they sounded very promising that they will be at my apartment on this date/time. I even bought new mop/detergents, all ready for their arrival. But…but…they FFK me!!!

Makes me wonder, are all these part-time cleaners like that! So unreliable! How they do business like that?!

Well…I am still hoping to find a reliable one soon, I think I really need the  

Anyone know of any good part-time cleaners?

Update note [20 Oct 2006] - I finally got the part-time maids to come thru a friend recommendation. They are fast and quite efficient - am glad and get rid of one worry

Heard this song from Martina McBride over the radio this morning…really melts my heart

In my daughter’s eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter’s eyes

In my daughter’s eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter’s eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It’s hangin’ on when your heart
has had enough
It’s giving more when you feel like giving up
I’ve seen the light
It’s in my daughter’s eyes

In my daughter’s eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she’ll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I’m gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I’ll be there
In my daughter’s eyes

I went for a detail scan last weekend and can see baby quite clearly. Initially, our baby is quite cheeky and was covering the butt with her hand so it was hard to figure out the gender. Later, the gynae came and scanned again because he want to confirm the baby’s gender. My gynae may look stern and is a no-nonsense kinda person…so I was telling baby in my heart, "Don’t be naughty and don’t cover your butt again ar…cause doctor wanna see". Waaa…baby really cooperative and the legs are spread out so gynae can scan quite clearly. Either she is really listening to me or scared of the doctor…hee hee

Gynae said, "Hmm…it’s a girl and type F E M A L E at the screen

I am quite happy to know that it’s a girl for sure and I have actually started buying all those pretty pinkish baby clothes for her. It’s really sweet knowing that I can dress her up soon as she grows into a little girl. When I was little, I used to play with dolls and dress them up…and soon, I will have a real baby girl to dress up  and all those girly things are ohhhhh soooooo sweeeet nowadays…