PonyTales

After married for more than 2 years and with baby on the way, things have really change. The changes I am talking about here is the early feelings that I have for hubby - when we were just friends/colleagues.

This song "Lost in Your Eyes" by Debbie Gibson always remind me of how I felt about hubby at that time - when I was at a major crossroad in my life.

I get lost, in your eyes
And I feel my spirits rise
And soar like the wind
Is it love that I am in?
I get weak in a glance
Isn’t this what’s called romance?
And that’s what I know
Cause when I’m lost
I can’t let go

I don’t mind
Not knowing what I’m headed for
You can take me to the skies
It’s like being lost in heaven
When (and) I’m lost in your eyes

I just felt
Don’t know why
Something is there
We can’t deny
Ooh, when I first knew
Was when I first looked at you
And if I
Can’t find my way
If salvation
Seems miles away
Oh, I’ll be found
When I’m lost in your eyes

I get weak in a glance
Isn’t this what’s called romance
Oh, I’ll be found
When I am lost
In your eyes

Why this song? - Because the lyrics really just describe my feelings then, how I felt in my heart.

I was going thru a very rough time with my ex and we were all working in the same company. At the same time, I also knew that there is something special about my hubby.

So, I was in this confusing dilemma for a while until I finally had enough and cut the relationship with a heavy heart. I felt like a complete loser after that and cried for weeks - I remember the many days I stared blankly at my office PC with blood shot eyes - dunno how to do work. Thank God I did not loose my job then! Hee Hee - almost everyone in my dept knew that I just broke up.

While still nursing a very broken heart, which I thot I will never recover - especially after discovering the truth about my ex. One bitter night and still crying buckets, I just knelt and pray to God - I asked God to help me if you are really there! I am gonna die crying like this! …and I cannot die now, my parents still need me to stay alive!

Shortly after, my hubby approach me on Valentine’s day with flowers (very bold of him) and I found hope again - I also found God and knew then that He really answer prayer