PonyTales

Zoe is almost 3 months old now and she is really putting on more baby fats and much more active nowadays.

In the evenings when we took her home from nanny’s house, she would start cooing on the journey home until the time she sleeps, usually around 10pm.

When she sees me, she will pout her lips and start to buu..buu…buu….no thanks to me laa, i thought her how to do that. Hubby was joking that she is actually calling me mommy in Hokkien - "Ah Bu"

Today is Mattel warehouse sale and I just got the lastest update from Daddy who sneak out to the sale - a lot of Fisher Price toys. He got 4 items for Zoe (lucky girl!) and I cannot wait to go home to see (play) the toys

Sorry to those reading my blog. I can’t seem to get slide to work in my blog, still wondering why…

So, you can view Zoe’s 8 week old slide here

For the past one week or so (if I remember correctly) Zoe started to make sounds that are more ‘high level’ as compared to the crying sound that is already pre-installed in her since birth…hee hee

Some of the sounds she made so far:

• Ehh….. (When I heard this, I am reminded that my parents used to tell me not to address people with "Eh!" - no manners especially in front of older people. As for Zoe, I guess she is trying to tell us something like:
  Eh..! What are you people eating huh!?)
• Huu…Huu… (This is her fake cry, when she wants attention and wants to be carried. This sound comes with very pitiful (fake) facial expressions with pouting lips
• Ack..! (This comes very sudden and loud, especially when hubby and me are busy talking. Probably, Zoe is trying to tell us: Ack…! U all too noisy la)
• An-goo…(This one always make me melts and wanna hug, hug and kiss her. She usually said an-goo to me when I am cleaning her up, changing her nappy or burping her. So, I take it as she telling me: Yes Mommy! u r doin a good job, make sure no more smelly poo-poo left on my butt and more drapolene cream please…ahh….)
• Ptuut…Ptuut (comes with salive bubbles) - This one is taught by me one morning on the way to the babysitter. I was trying to keep her entertained and started ptuut…ptuut..ptuutt at her. She was staring at me very intensely and suddenly to my surprise, she started pouting her lips and follow after me. I jump up in joy and almost hit my head at the car top
  I remember old folks used to said that if baby start playing with saliva bubbles, means its gonna rain soon…kekeke. Nevermine laa, since she looks so cute doing it)

Zoe is really getting more playful nowadays, especially in the evening when we took her back from the nanny. She would want our attention and start to make all sorts of noise. She especially like it when Daddy play superman with her - means holding her posing like superman flying and running around the house as if she is flying. She will smile and smile and show her two cute dimples.

Sometimes, Zoe will respond to me when I sing to her, especially songs like Jesus loves me and Twinkle Twinkle little Star…She will go…an-goo..uur..urr…as if she wanna sing along with me

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion’s gone away
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You’re faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life’s been way off line
You’re falling to pieces every time
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

Because you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I’m not wrong

(yeah…)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You’ve seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

I remember my company’s big boss played this song at one of our staff meeting when we failed to meet a deadline and it cost the company a lot. What a song….rite!?

I am having a bad day today. Too many things to worry about, mainly family issues (both side) and to top it off with sleep deprivation

I got all worked up this morning and called my hubby and told him all the ill feelings I had over two of his family member - who has given us many unwanted problems - financially.

My dad called me and told me that his leg is aching and he is having difficulties preparing lunch for himself. My mom is gonna stop work soon to take care of him and she is actually very reluctant to do so.

The cost of moving to our new home.

Challenges in both our careers and the coming transportation issue.

It is really very hard to keep my cool when faced with problems financially and health wise. Depressing….and I still have not fully recovered postpartum, still need to see my gynae next week. Both my wrists still hurts when I carry baby.

Although I have took all sorts of precautions and planned all I could to make sure I am ready to be a mother, still other problems pop-up like mushroom after rain. Some is really beyond what I can do or help.

Yet, life goes on…

…and I need a blue sky holiday…

It is already expected, that this will happen. Countless mommies and daddies have reminded us about it.

Now, we taste it! Mmmm…Mmmmm…..sleepless nights

I am sleepy all the way from the LRT to the office, I might need the help of loytape to keep my eyes open before my boss notice all the ZzzZZzz flying around my head.

It is not really like those times when we burn midnight oil to study or work, those nights were quiet and if we snooze off, nobody knows. Now, baby knows and she will make sure we stay awake for the "wakey wakey" campaign. It is serious to her, else she will make sure all the neighbours knows that we did not cooperate with her….huuu..huuu…

But, all is not that bad cause she sometimes smiles the sweetest smiles at us when we join her wakey campaign. It is priceless

Last night was another typical sleepless night. Anyone wanna join our wakey wakey campaign? No!?
Okay, we understand…by the way, please pray for us

Thank you…muaks…nite nite

I am officially back to work on Friday, 2 Mar 07 - time flies. I am back to an office with lots of changes - I am seated at a new cubicle and my boss is no longer the boss of the dept he was heading and the dept has ceased to operate. Thank God I still have my job and a little increment, which is an added bonus. I guess this is the norm working in a MNC - things changes very fast.

I was taking care of Zoe by myself for the whole of February. It was challenging for me at first as I have no experience taking care of a baby before and I am kinda worried when confinement lady was leaving. Then, I thot to myself - if I cannot take care of Zoe and I am her mother, who else is in better position to take care of her? God has given Zoe to me and made me a mother, surely he has worked out all the details right!
Well! I will just bite the bullet and plunge in and I am sure things will worked out over time. Thankfully, it is really not that hard taking care of my little angel, she seems to understand when mommy need to take a bath or go to toilet and not make a fuss during those times. I would not say that there are no stress at all, there are stressful moments when she cried her lungs out because mommy just cannot understand what she wants - but all are still manageable. Thank you Lord!

Life is triple busier having a baby around and one thing for sure is - No More procastinating any work. Do it now! or baby will wake up soon and she will need me. Wow! I found that I have never been more efficient and effective in finishing all the household chores in the shortest time possible. No nonsense!

I guess this is life as a mother - no nonsense such as day dreaming of what to wear for tomorrow or what to eat so that I will not put on more weight. Just do it! Just eat it!
Speaking about weight - I am now lighter than my weight on my wedding day, which I thot is my best record already. I can now fit into any tight clothings that I had before and I bet I can now wear my Form 1 school uniform

Zoe is now with the baby sitter and I really had a lot of anxiety and worries before sending her over. I sent her there a few days earlier before I start work so that I can stay there with her to monitor the surroundings and people she will be in contact with. Looks pretty ok so far. Just pray hard every day for her that she will not be harm in any way.

I would say that now it is much easier taking care of her during the night only as compared to whole day. I really salute all the mothers who gave up their job for their babies - it is really hard work round the clock. It takes great love and passion to stay at home whole day tending to babies and not get a salary for it. Only a mother can do it! I am still learning to be a good one and so far is okay with the graveyard shift :p

Hmm…I will post more on Zoe soon, there are just so much about her that I want to write about. Oh boy! she can really take the extreme out of me - one moment I will be running around like mad making sure she is well fed and the next I will be sighing in contentment when she smiles at me while I fed her. Oh yea! by the way - it is really true that every mother thinks that their baby is the cutest one in the world - well, at least in the mother’s world. I think so too…