FTWM
I am a full-time working mom (FTWM). Recently, I heard from two colleagues that they are thinking of quitting their job or taking unpaid leave to care for their babies. This is not out of their choice, but desperate because they have problems getting a babysitter for their babies.
As a mother, I felt for them - regardless whether the problems is with them or the nanny. In situation like this, it is pointless to point fingers and blame because at the end of the day - it will always be the mother who will need to sacrifice. I guess once we are a mother, the priority is really our child.
I count my blessing so far for not being in this type of situation. I am not sure whether I will face it one day but deep inside, I know that I want to be with Zoe as much as I could as she reaches childhood. I remember my own childhood with my mom (a housewife) and it was good. All the mother-daughter time we had and wholesome home cooked meals - I still miss it today.
For me, eventually I will be at home with Zoe for a while - as a homemaker until the day she is old enough and found her own nest. As for career, I am also not that willing to give up and part with the independence of having my own income. So how?
This is the balance that mother like me need to juggle. It is a fact that we must accept the first time we see our baby - eye to eye.
How to strike this balance? and have the best of both worlds?
The best option for now is to work from home. Sadly, not many employers in our country fancy this idea.
So, I know I have to work extra hard now to enable myself to work from home. I am still working on it and cannot be 100% sure that I will be able to strike the balance one day. Anyhow, the idea is there and if I do not try, I will never know. I pray for God’s guidance and blessing.
This post is to remind myself that I still have homework to do…ha ha ha! For the sake of Zoe and for my own well being 
