Number 2
Nowadays, this must be the most frequently asked questions I get from friends, colleagues and relatives, especially those who are already a parent.
"So…planning for no. 2 now?!"
"Don’t let the gap get too wide, u know!…u need to re-start all over and as u get older, its tiring!"
"Its about time…u know…"
"Zoe needs siblings…"
…even a confession from this young gorgeous lady in my office
"I am an only child…its very lonely! Please dun stop at 1…"
Seriously, I am not that ready to face another pregnancy. I can only wish and pray and hope that my pregnancy will be smooth. I have this phobia because my last pregnancy took a great toll on my body, my mind and its scary. I can still remember how it felt like to be pregnant (for me) and no, the child birth pain and joy did not took the memory away from me. I can remember quite well how it was like to be pregnant - with hyperemesis…
I remember asking God - why me!? (Its that bad!)
What’s my chances for a healthy pregnancy? If only God can tell me…
(Science and gynae could not tell or give me any assurance…)
I don’t know about others, but whenever I get a question of no.2 or I think about it - it relates directly to pregnancy sickness…very negative…I know…can’t help it!
Other factors to be considered:
Financial - just work harder…it’ll come or simply get by with what we have…
Child care - another tough part, good babysitter is hard to come by. Harder even when you are trying your utmost best to find a good one. Resign and stay at home, not really a wise move with the current economy and super inflation going on…
Night feeds - not that scary as compared to pregnancy…serious!
and some other factors…
A note to remind myself not to go into hyperdrive thinking about the above…
A child is a gift from God. What God has planned, He will see it thru and deliver as planned…so, let it be and let it come naturally. It’s not what you or others wanted or expected that counts. It’s a call for duty with unconditional love. If God sees it fit that you can be 2,3,4 x Mommy…you will be given the strength to go thru it…Amen!
