PonyTales

"Yes! We did it! We did it!…", that is how Dora the Explorer sing her songs everytime she accomplishes her goals. A very positive, independent and adventurous girl. I kinda like Dora for that!

Zoe loves Dora the Explorer now, maybe more than Barney…hahaha!

Today is the official first day of play school for Zoe, which is the reason I want to write this post no matter how busy I am chasing deadlines. All I can say for now is Zoe has made us proud and I have come to see and realise her independence also (how come I was so ignorant of her ability…geez). Something which I have very little confidence a couple of weeks ago when we were still scouting for a playschool and day care for her.

My anxiety really peak the whole of last week that resulted in me having migrain for 4 days. The feeling is worse than me changing job…hahaha!

Last Saturday we sent her for half day until 1pm. I can see that she truly enjoy herself there. She can understand the teacher’s instructions and follow right thru everything that she needs to do. The teacher gave me a reassured look (yea, I needed it!) and give us the thumbs up to indicate to us Zoe did well. I was still anxious and was hopping from one pillar to the other hiding behind it while trying to peep at Zoe. Up to a point that Daddy told me I gotta let go and make a move. We shall see how she fare later.

We returned at 1pm to pick her. The moment we step in, the teacher there gave us a big smile and gave us the thumbs up again. I quickly ask her how Zoe did and whether she cried or gave everyone a hard time. Teacher told me she is amazing, very independent and enjoy herself there. I ask whether she asked for Daddy or Mommy? "Nope, not at all!", says the teacher. At this point, one part of me is damn proud of my little girl but another part of me has this mixed feelings that is so hard to describe…its like my mind asking…"Where is my little baby who clings to me and needed me all the time!?…that tiny little one that I gave birth to?" Hahaha…strange yea that I am so weak but Zoe is all good and happy in the new place.

Once Zoe realised we were there, she smile and quickly wanted to reach for me. She was doing some montesorri activity that time, scooping beans from one bowl to another. The teacher made her put back the tray of bowl and beans to the proper place before she come to us. She follow right thru without a single complain.  Such obedience, something which I find it hard to do at home with her cause she is so stubborn at home. Anyhow, I will make it a point to learn some skills from the teacher soon…hahaha!

Back to this morning, her official first day and she look so tiny in her uniform. We sent her together, cause this lousy Mommy is having the anxiousness again. Teacher Soo greeted us as we are the earliest there at 7:30am. I was still carrying Zoe and when Teacher Soo greeted Zoe and held out her arms to her, she immediately lean over to the teacher and let Teacher Soo carry her into the toddler’s room. Teacher Soo gave me an assured smile and proceeded to get some snacks for Zoe. Looks like this Mommy needs more assurances from the teacher than little Zoe….sigh….

Teacher Soo asked Zoe to say bye bye to us. She followed and wave bye bye to us….Awwww! I was speechless by then and just trying to hold on to my composure so that I do not do anything silly that will break the peace at that time. Teacher Soo proceeded to bring Zoe to the canteen and was out of sight a moment later. I was still standing there trying to peep until Daddy gave me a nudge to go.

"That’s it! We did it, we did it!" Just like that and my little Zoe (all 22 months and 2 days old) is now schooling already. Yea yea…its’ just a play school, not really that real real school right. But I guess the anxiousness I suffer is gonna probably be the same 5 years down the road, or maybe worse. Nevertheless, we are very proud of Zoe and we hope and pray that she will enjoy herself truly in this new place. Thank God for answering our prayers and walking together with us in this journey, all these time. Amen!