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Just July…

July 4, 2008

July has arrived and I realised I have not written anything yet. There are quite a few things happening in our household for this month alone…

  • Zoe turn 18 months as of 1st July (1.5 years old already!). She is getting more and more cheeky by the day. I often wonder what tricks is up her sleeve next…sigh!
  • Daddy and Zoe flew back to Kota Bharu without me today - to visit great Grandma as she has not been feeling well. Their first solo flight together - Father and Daughter…just got a call they have touch down safely. Today I felt the type of anxiousness seeing my loved one fly in a plane without me - such a mixture of feelings.
  • Daddy will be leaving us for a business trip to US - next week…We will not be seeing him till early August…feels so looooooooooong….
  • I hope my parents will come over to stay with me while Daddy is away - I really need someone to literally watch at Zoe while I am taking bath - at least! She can do quite a bit of damage if no one is watching her…even if someone is watching her!
  • About a week before she turns 18 mths, Zoe discovered the fun of unscrewing caps from bottles or tubes (her nappy cream, toothpaste or anything she can get her hand on). One evening, she climbed up to the dining table, grab her unattended bottle of antibiotic (my fault!), unscrew the cap and pour the contents into her sippy cup…
  • Zoe insists on putting the nappy cream by herself now after bath - she will take the nappy cream from me, unscrew it and dab little by little with her chubby fingers on her buttock. I wonder whether any other kids her age doing this!?
  • I have just recovered from a major migrain that lasted 3 days - and I am still feeling the after effect now, numb all over and not functioning as well as I could…sigh…I really need my Excedrin soon….
  • Got a notice that the unit 2 doors away from our condo is up for auction, the price is very attractive at more than 40k below developer price…tempting!

Well…I hope I sailed thru July and somehow…I am still hoping for a breakthru in certain part of my life…need to pray harder!



Number 2

May 15, 2008

Nowadays, this must be the most frequently asked questions I get from friends, colleagues and relatives, especially those who are already a parent.

"So…planning for no. 2 now?!"

"Don’t let the gap get too wide, u know!…u need to re-start all over and as u get older, its tiring!"

"Its about time…u know…"

"Zoe needs siblings…"

…even a confession from this young gorgeous lady in my office

"I am an only child…its very lonely! Please dun stop at 1…"

Seriously, I am not that ready to face another pregnancy. I can only wish and pray and hope that my pregnancy will be smooth. I have this phobia because my last pregnancy took a great toll on my body, my mind and its scary. I can still remember how it felt like to be pregnant (for me) and no, the child birth pain and joy did not took the memory away from me. I can remember quite well how it was like to be pregnant - with hyperemesis…
I remember asking God - why me!? (Its that bad!)
What’s my chances for a healthy pregnancy? If only God can tell me…
(Science and gynae could not tell or give me any assurance…)

I don’t know about others, but whenever I get a question of no.2 or I think about it - it relates directly to pregnancy sickness…very negative…I know…can’t help it!

Other factors to be considered:

Financial - just work harder…it’ll come or simply get by with what we have…

Child care - another tough part, good babysitter is hard to come by. Harder even when you are trying your utmost best to find a good one. Resign and stay at home, not really a wise move with the current economy and super inflation going on…

Night feeds - not that scary as compared to pregnancy…serious!

and some other factors…

A note to remind myself not to go into hyperdrive thinking about the above…

A child is a gift from God. What God has planned, He will see it thru and deliver as planned…so, let it be and let it come naturally. It’s not what you or others wanted or expected that counts. It’s a call for duty with unconditional love. If God sees it fit that you can be 2,3,4 x Mommy…you will be given the strength to go thru it…Amen!



Kitchen tales

March 6, 2008

Mum Mum

Alphabets pasta cooked with milk, carrots and broccoli

Since Zoe started solid, I have found good use of my kitchen. Before she was born, our cooking condiments, gas tank and even dish washer can last a year and still more than half available even after a year. Yeah, I wasn’t really into cooking when there were just the 2 of us. Eating out was much more nicer, cleaner (no mess in kitchen) and conveniently easier for us.

When Zoe was about to start solid feeding at 5 months, I knew then I have to feed her well, no matter how lazy I am. I started doing lots of research online, at the book store and asking some experience mothers on how to prepare meals for babies? how much to eat? what to eat?

The information was overwhelming and I foresee busy weekends preparing meals. It was then that I decided I will prepare Zoe’s food daily, thou the Nanny already said she is going to do it without extra charges. When I relate this to some other working moms like me, it sounded silly to them. But I have made up my mind. I want Zoe to eat healthy food and food she recognise is prepared by me. I don’t think that is a really silly thing to do…I think it will made a difference in the years to come…

The initial stage of feeding Zoe is challenging (puking after feed, the distorted face when the food/taste is new) but with my Nanny’s help, it wasn’t very long till I see her excitement when she see food. I think every babies need time to adapt to solid food. It is also a very rewarding experience to see Zoe enjoying the food I prepared. Now, she tails me to kitchen daily and have this longing eyes looking at me, sometimes uttering a word or two and opening her palm to me as if she is asking me, "What is cooking!? I wanna eat!…" I love these moments! (knowing all the efforts of preparing food daily, woke up 5am to cook and weekends marketing, washing, storing, packing are not wasted). I am still doing the same today, althou Nanny have taken over the cooking but all ingredients still comes from me - washed, cut, packed and just need to be cooked.

Some of the food that Zoe is taking and lovin’ it!

Porridge with:

  • Cod fish/deep sea ma yau (also know as sun fung yue) or chicken (these have to be bought weekly at the wet market so its fresh - washed, cut into serving sizes and freeze in individual sealable portion bags. It is better to store all the sealed bags into plastic containers - cleaner and easier to take out.
  • Dry scallops and ikan bilis (only given after 1 year old).
  • Carrots (washed and chopped), broccoli (washed, soaked and cut), spinach (washed, soaked and take only the leavy part).
  • French beans or long beans (washed and cut), corn, sweet peas, holland peas, tomato

Other foods she take:

  • Sweet potatoes, potatoes, pumpkin (washed, cut and steamed before being cooked with other ingredients)
  • Apple, pear, banana, papaya, mango, orange (these gotta be cooked and puree when she is 6 months till about 8 months) Previously, one portion is a meal add into rice cereals, now is more like a snack to her and no need to be cooked after 1 year old. When I was working in KLCC, there is this fruit shop nearby the LRT that sells really juicy and yummy fruits. I usually bought the fruits there.
  • Oats with milk, cheese (given her Baby Bel, Krafts and Laughing Cows cheese - she loves it!), yogurt (I let her eat on her own, thou messy but she enjoy it a lot!), tofu, egg yolks, baby biscuits (her all time favourite snacks)
  • Pasta, spaghetti, rice with soups, bread and toasts.

Before I started cooking for Zoe, I do not experiment with cooking much. I never knew that chicken, corn and carrots rice porridge is really yummy and fragrant without any seasonings! It really open up my imagination a lot to cook nice tasting stuff without seasonings as it is not good to feed baby with salt or seasoning before 1. I think I learned a lot about the basic taste of food and about blending the taste together to get a meal that is yummy (or edible!) - another valuable lesson in the journey of motherhood.

Nowadays, I do add a few drops of soya sauce to her porridge. I guess its alright to slowly introduce some salty stuff to her now that she is 14 mths. I can see that she is very delighted with the new taste of her porridge with a little soya sauce. She seems to want more even after a full bowl! Ahhh….the power of soya sauce…hahaha!

I am today more "market-wise!" (new word! hahaha!) What I am trying to say is I am more experienced shopping at the wet market than before. I used to get very lost in the wet market..shame!!
I knew the name to some of the veges I used to eat but have never bother to know its name! I knew that a kilo of deep sea ma yau at RM55 is too expensive (RM45 is about ok). I knew that a kg of cod fish can fetch up to RM70, a slice which is 1 week supply for Zoe is about RM25. I knew that Australian carrots are juicier, bigger and sweater compared to those sold in hypermarket in packets (mainly from China and sometimes from Australia). Generally, the food in wet market are fresher and of a higher quality compared to hypermarket, thou it is slightly more expensive. Being a frequent customer now (every Sat morning), I am beginning to enjoy discounts from the folks in the wet market. This is good as they usually round down the figure I need to pay or gave me some free stuff (extra tomato or vege) or some extra meats at no charge!

Yet another life lesson being a Mom and not that boring as I would have imagined 5 years ago emoticon



Lunch with Mom

February 15, 2008

Today I had a very rare occassion of having lunch alone with my Mom. I drove alone to her coffeeshop to meet her, my Dad was not in the coffee shop. Mom said he got Valentine’s hangover….hahaha!!!

It has been "I forgotten how long" of time since I manage to eat lunch with Mom, just the two of us. Especially after Zoe’s arrival. It felt so long ago.

I realised a few things while having lunch with Mom just now:

  1. My Mom still fuss over me emoticon. When I accidentally drop some rojak sauce unto my hand, she quickly scurried over and handed me a tisssue, without me lifting a finger. But, if Zoe is around, all the fuss goes to her…sigh!
  2. My Mom never failed to have something nice to eat that she can offer me, even with a surprise visit like that! She shared the rojak an uncle gave her earlier - seems like at her golden years Mom still able to attract some attention from the opposite sex…kekeke
  3. We tend to gossip about our in-laws when we chat, just the 2 of us. Its bitchy but so relieving…aaaahhhh
  4. My Mom likes to talk about my Brother and update me on what he has achieved or where he gonna work. We knew very well that my brother is able to take very good care of himself, but yet my Mom must make it a point to let me know his progress. Anyway, its good to know! Maybe she did the same when she is with my Brother - updates about me!
  5. I sprained my neck and shoulder yesterday nite and told Mom about it, she never fail to produce something to cure me. This time, a black herbal tablet the size of a paracetamol tablet. She swear that it can cure the pain, but I might bet a little sleepy later.
  6. She likes to make me try all the new products (drinks/food) she found or served in her coffeshop. Today it was some herbal lemonade. I am always hesitant but also always ends up gulping down everything the Queen commanded me to eat. Thank God this one taste good!
  7. I notice Mom always seems to look the same to me - never aged a day, thou she is 60 this year. She is still fair and lovely to me.
  8. My Mom still like to teased me and hubby. Yesterday being Valentine’s day, she asked me whether we spent it cleaning up Zoe’s poo poo, compared to those times when we can go out and have candlelight dinner. She was having a blast yesterday nite with Dad and some friends celebrating Valentine’s. Now I understand what she meant, she has got back her independence of doing the things she like after taking care of Brother and me as a housewife for so many years.
  9. My Mom still observed the way I dress. Today being Friday is a dress down day for me in the office. I was only clad in T-shirt, a pair of khakis and sports shoes. She commented why I dress so "cin cai" to office.
  10. My Mom always gives me a hug and some food for me to bring along before I leave but nowadays her hugs seems much more precious and touching to me.

We celebrated Mom’s 60th Birthday this year at the coffeeshop, her favourite place for this moment. We had 2 tables of 8 course dinner - cook and ingredients supervised by my Mom. The food is excellent!

Birthday Cake

Mom’s 60th Birthday Cake - from us!

Mom & Zoe

Mom and Zoe - saying "You listen to me 1st!!"

Thank you Lord for blessing me with a SuperMom - Someone I can always run to for some TLC emoticon



2 weeks more to Chinese New Year!

January 22, 2008

Two weeks count down to celebrating Chinese New Year in Kota Bharu, Kelantan.

This will be the 1st Chinese New Year (CNY) celebration in Kelantan for Zoe and her second time taking a flight home. I hope this time she will still let me strap her and sit quietly throughout the journey. Otherwise, I might need the help of the pretty air stewardess to distract her attention. She seems to be very attracted to pretty people anyway…hehehe

We will be home slightly longer (4 days) and we will be visiting Great Grandma in Tumpat for the reunion dinner and 1st day of CNY. I am hoping that this time around, I will be able to visit the duty free zone for some retail theraphy, either Rantau Panjang or Pengkalan Kubur. I have not visited the Rantau Panjang duty free area as all these years, it was not safe due to the bombing in southern Thailand. I have been to Pengkalan Kubur several times and got a few items at really good price, especially pots and pans. I am still eyeing the Corningware set or Vision set they have there. Their selection of Pyrex products are not bad too. I never did bought any cause of the weight issue with airlines. If we are driving home next year, I will definitely bring home a full set of Corningware or Visions…hee hee hee. They have nice pirated clohtings too, like Nike, Timberland and some other sports brand. I need to make a mental note to get a few this year if I see any and not hesitate when the opportunity is there and regret later emoticon

Besides shopping, we plan to go to the beach as well. It will either be Pantai Seri Tujuh (nearby Great Grandma’s place) or Pantai Cahaya Bulan (PCB). I read that PCB has got quite a number of Batik shops and the recommended one is Citra Batik. Another mental note to visit that place if we manage to visit PCB. I visited PCB once, before we were married - feels like very long ago as I have very vague memory about it.

Af for Kelantan food, it is one of the best things about Hubby’s hometown. I simply love the food in Kelantan, lots of spices and very aromatic and natural. My gastronomic wishes this time around is to savour:

  • Keropok lekor - home cooked type
  • Nasi kerabu & laksam - my usual favourites
  • Murtabak Raja or Royal Murtabak -reportedly sold for RM11 per piece as Sultan Kelantan tasted it before and it is huge and delicious
  • Ayam Percik - it gotta be Yati’s ayam percik as it tasted the best so far and pricing wise comparable to KFC
  • Authentic Thai food hidden in the jungle fringe along the wakaf baru or Tumpat area - They are really good and tasty.
  • Durian kuih (Lempok Durian) - Those homemade by Grandma or the neighbours. I hope to get some this time around.
  • Fresh fruits from the family orchard - Duku, Dokong, Durian, mango and a lot more…

Not to forget also the numerous house to house visits will have lots of Kelantanese home cooked delicacies of Nasi Dagang, Nasi Kerabu, Pulut with curry and lots of cookies and kuih. Every household serve full meals like these during CNY for visitors.

Thinking about it makes me all excited to "balik kampung" again this year. I probably need to fast and loose a few pounds in order to store the amount of food I am gonna take home with me this year….hehehe



The season for giving

December 13, 2007

This is the season for giving. Sometimes, when you walked at the mall, there are just so much promotions that make one wanna buy it all.

I love giving presents…since the time I knew what presents was all about. The first present that I bought with my own pocket money was for my father. It is a shaver that cost only about RM2 (if I remember correctly) and I save each day 10 sen to get it. I felt a sense of achievement when I bought the present from the Indian boss at the sundry shop. The Indian boss must be wondering what a girl barely 10 years old doin so happy with a shaver…hahahaha emoticon
Heck, nothing beats the look on my father’s face when he saw the present I gave him. It was priceless…

I am the type who would spend hours making sure I wrapped the presents in the most presentable way. Buying gifts and wrapping presents makes me a happy person.

Over these few years after I am married and Zoe comes along, a lot of things have changed. My perspective of giving is somehow different. Giving is more of a sacrifice of ownself now, not just a present.

The time spent with a person is a gift
The effort spent to make something happen to someone is a gift
The untiring attention and never ending love is a gift
The unconditional love is a gift
The ability to put others first is a gift
The patience to nurse a sick person is a gift
The generosity to see others needs first is a gift
and many more that I have experienced just this year alone…

I am blessed to be able to experience all these and I thank God for the lesson learned. It is God and the people he put around me who taught me what gifts are all about. Not just tangible presents but silent blessings do create the greatest impact and are needed most.

I just want to wish everyone Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

I know it is a bit early but to me, as long as it is December, it is Christmas ok!

So…

A Very Merry Christmas to Everyone and Happy New Year!! WoooHooooo!!!!



Home Alone

October 29, 2007

I will be home alone with Zoe from tomorrow onwards for about 11 days as hubby will be away on a biz trip. Actually, not really that alone as my Dad has agreed to stay with us for the duration that hubby is away.

Zoe just recovered from a bad case of flu, cough and phlegm now its my turn to be down with the same terrible bugs. I have been coughing like mad for past few days. I gotta get well soon really fast and hope that Zoe will not catch this bugs again…fingers crossed!!

Zoe has grown to be very attached to hubby and I hope this separation (for the 1st time since she was conceived!!) is not too hard for her to bear. I hope she will just sail thru this period without even noticing it! I hope! I really really hope eventhou the chances is slim as she is really very aware of her surroundings and people around her now. I pray for pleasant nights and no crying till Daddy comes home.

Zoe has started to said "PaPaPaPaPa.." non stop since last week. Thou it sometimes sounds involuntarily, I know she is actually referring to her Daddy as I have spotted a few moments when Hubby is sleeping on the bed and she was sitting beside hubby leaning over to look at him and saying "PaPa..PaPa.." in a very soft angelic tone…that was so sweet till it bring tears to my eyes. We actually teach her to say "Daddy" and "Mommy" for so long but instead she pick up the word PaPa. That just shows that she is purely a "Hokkien kia".

Nowadays, if she see Hubby in sight and he did not came to sit beside her or carry her, she would cry for him. Her cries become louder if Hubby suddenly is out of her sight. She would chase after hubby crawling and crying half way and losing her energy and breathe. She rarely have this sort of response with my presence. I believe that it is true that baby girl are more attached to their Daddy then Mommy. I am one too, I am very close to my PaPa.

I know Hubby is gonna miss her little baby girl a lot too. He took bath for Zoe during the weekends (never or at least rare) and told me he might miss Zoe’s first step. I told him Zoe would not be making such a big progress so fast althou she is really trying all sort of stunts to walk. Some makes her look really funny.

Anyway, this is not something we can avoid at this time and Mommy and Zoe at home is already eagerly waiting for Daddy to bring home some goodies from Down Under yea!? emoticon

Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx, from YouTube

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesnt stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you….

HaHaHa…I always seems to have a song for every occassion…